I know what's outside too. For that matter, you don't know the worst of it. You've never been chased down by tanks, for example.

Look. I don't expect you to turn into Joe fucking Extrovert. A lot of people aren't worth the emotional risk of connecting with them on more than a superficial level. But you can have a few friends. A bit of empathy. It doesn't have to be a catastrophic thing.

Some of my clanmates do various things to disconnect from the rest of the group mind for long spans. They're the introverts. That's just how they are. But even they reconnect a little now and again, in their own ways.